Beyond Love (True Story Of A Dipsite)


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Beyond Love (True Story Of A Dipsite)

Dear Friend,

You definitely don’t want to be bored with a sermon. Being a copywriter, I ought to know to not do that to you. So. I’ll keep this short for you.

You probably want to know who the hell am I? I’m Aakshey Talwar. And I was diagnosed with Asperger’s when I was in class 9. You saw SRK in My Name is Khan? For now, this introduction should suffice.

But. I have set out on a journey that none of my *normal* school and college mates dared to take. You’re probably wondering what the heck is this guy talking about.

I’ll get that to that in a bit.

I’ll be telling you 2 short stories today. Just 2 of them. No big deal.

These short stories form the basis of who I’m today. And I’m sure they will help you in some way or the other, in your own journey.

First, let us talk about love.

Back in DPS RKP, in class 11, I fell in love. And I was madly in love. Her name was Annie. And I found her beautiful.

I found life harsh because she used to hate me. You probably know how terrible and painful that feels. Time didn’t stop though.

School ended. And of course, there wasn’t much hope after that.

But. I hope you don’t love anybody that way. Because it is poison. But. Now we’re moving off topic.

The question is why did Annie hate me?

And the answer is simple. I was different. Weird in fact. Teenagers, and popular girls in particular don’t like that. One bit. You’d agree with that perhaps.

My classmates used to call me an Alien due to my stratospheric IQ but weird behaviour.

And most of all, I just didn’t have the courage to approach Annie directly. I never got the courage to talk to her confidently. Even though she was in the same school bus!

And as you probably know, girls hate lack of confidence. And I was as under confident as one could be.

Long story short, Annie was never in my life as my GF.

And it was the biggest setback ever. You’d probably not want anything remotely similar to happen to you. Pray it doesn’t happen to you. And I’ll pray for you too.

And the biggest hurdle that was there was overcoming that Asperger related behaviour. You understand that. Right?

Anyway, enough about the first story.

You probably want to hear the next one.

The final one.

My love for Annie made me start my own company. Weaving Thoughts. When I was not even 18 years old.

Yes, I did enrol in a full time college course. From Delhi University, no less. I attended Shaheed Sukhdev College of Business Studies and majored in Finance. And I did graduate as well. Albeit. I just about passed. But that isn’t what we are talking about right now. Right?

Coming back to the point.

Back in 2008, age 18 years, I still loved Annie. A lot. And that will never change. It hasn’t changed in 2016 either. And starting Weaving Thoughts was the best way I could think of to impress her. And to earn enough to buy gifts for her. Of course the gifting part never materialised.

You’d have done the same thing. Right? Thought so!

And later on Weaving Thoughts was to become my dream. My passion. My love. My life. I didn’t need to take up a job when my friends were taking up jobs or going for higher education.

There were times of success and those of failure. And even now I’m still recuperating from a low. But at least I’m happier than ever and I can see a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel.

To top it all. I have been on anti-depressants ever since school ended. I have been suicidal for a significant part of this journey. And not everything is hunk dory even now. As you’d probably have guessed.


There is a point I’m trying to make.

Had Annie not been in my life as an inspiration, I would have never started Weaving Thoughts.

Had I not started Weaving Thoughts, I would just be an unhappy and disgruntled employee in a corporate job with no existence of his own. I would never have been happy. And I wouldn’t know what to do about it either.

Had Annie accepted me, I don’t know whether I’d have taken out enough time to pursue Weaving Thoughts through college.

And this is just the tip of the ice berg.

There is a lot of stuff that never made sense till even a year ago. And there is much that doesn’t make sense even now.


Once you believe that you reside in the Creator of the Universe. And that he resides in you. And. That you and the Lord are all but one. You’ll be better equipped to deal with the problems that come.

It may not always work out. But. Do you know anything that will?

And just to show a glimpse of how much I loved Annie:

Back in grade 12, when all of us were 17 year olds, Annie had kept a Karwa Chauth fast for her then boyfriend, who of course didn’t do the same for her! Frustrated at the thought of enjoying my meal while she was hungry and thirsty, I decided to keep one for her myself. That day, I didn’t drink a drop of water nor ate a bite of food till I broke my fast with her pic when the moon came out. Of course, she doesn’t know this even today. (I did drink a few drops of water early morning with my medicines, but that’s it!)

P.S. The name of my love has been changed to Annie to maintain her privacy. Which becomes even more important now that she’s happily married. Not to me of course! I’m single and ready to mingle.

P.P.S. Some 340 or so poems that I wrote for Annie, that I have self published on Across two volumes.


P.P.S. You can download the poems for free from my server:



About the author:

Aakshey Talwar is the founder and CEO of Gaia Internet aka and Weaving Thoughts. Both companies are really two sides of the same coin.

Gaia Internet is an on-demand content writing service that is trying to make a mark for itself.

GaiaQ has worked as a content vendor with Nearbuy, MobiKwik, Portea, VC Circle, Economic Times, Times Internet, Hyatt, CoverFox and many more big brands.

Aakshey was a Dipsite and graduated from CBS (DU). He is a big foodie, avid music lover and crazy gadget freak!

To learn more about Aakshey Talwar or to contact him, visit

To learn more about GaiaQ, visit

To learn more about Weaving Thoughts, visit


Why e-Commerce May End Up Like e-mail


Do you remember when back in the 90’s every Tom, Dick and Harry was becoming an email provider and me-too’s like Lycos, Excite and others were getting multi-billion dollar valuations?

Everybody thought e-mail was the next BIG thing and that everybody remotely associated with it would end up as a billionaire.

And certainly, e-mail was and still is revolutionary.

More so than e-Commerce will ever be.

After all, who wants to go back to snail mail? Certainly not me!

Then came the Dot Com Bubble Burst of 2000-2001.

And companies like Lycos that were once valued at $25 Billion or even higher ended up getting acquired at 1/100th or even 1/1000th their peak valuation.

This is what happened to the successful ones of yesteryears (the likes of Flipkart and Zomato today).

The so-so ones (especially those that were massively funded) like today’s SnapDeal or Ola died quickly but painfully.

By the way, I know that neither Zomato or Ola is in e-Commerce, however, that isn’t the point I’m making.

Fast forward to 2016

Did e-mail prove to be revolutionary?


But how many players do we have today?

Just ONE, Alphabet/Google.

If you think companies like Yahoo or Hotmail are making their major chunk of cash through free e-mail, you’re highly mistaken.

And surprisingly, even Google isn’t making any money through its free e-mail. The ads basically subsidise their losses and help convert free users into paid ones. That’s it!

Sure. Google does make some money through Google Apps. But then that isn’t free email. They don’t need to provide Gmail for free anymore, Google Apps would do just fine without free Gmail as well.

So why does Google still provide Gmail for free?

Because Google studies your e-mail content and uses it to target ads to you.

Gmail is used as a loss leader for two purposes:

One, to get data that can be used in Adwords where Google actually makes most of its money.

Two, to up-sell Google Apps to corporates to make more money on the side.

Essentially, free email didn’t really allow anybody to get rich directly.

It became popular.

But. Everybody lost.

Google came out on the top because it had a core business model that worked around providing e-mail. Rather than a model that focused on providing free e-mail and nothing more.

So. Where does e-Commerce come in?

The only truly profitable e-Commerce companies in the world are eBay, Alibaba and others who work on the same lines.

They don’t sell stuff to you.

They don’t subsidise stuff.

eBay doesn’t even consider shipping their primary responsibility.

They don’t personally engage in the selling process.

What do they do?

They provide a marketplace where they get a cut on every single transaction. They don’t subsidise the prices of their sellers. They focus on customer service.

And that’s it!

Even Amazon is yet to make a profit from its e-Commerce division if their tech divisions are put aside. They make money on stuff apart from e-Commerce.

And most of the big names in Global e-Commerce like Rakuten, etc are barely getting by.

They have good revenue.

But not very high margins.

Most of them have a 0.5-2% margin on revenue.

This is worse than Walmart.

The only ones that defy this are smaller niche companies that aren’t in the big league.

Even if Flipkart does have $15 Billion in revenue 10 years into the future, their Profit After Tax is likely going to be like $200 Million or so, take or give.

For such a mature e-Commerce company the P/E will be 10 tops.

So Flipkart will probably have a $2 Billion Market Cap 10 years into the future if things go as currently planned.

Not even inflation adjusted!

By the way, Flipkart had a little under $1.5 Billion in gross sales in 2015 (GMV does NOT count).

I am not saying that there won’t be profitable players in e-Commerce.

But possibly there will NOT be many BIG players in a given country.

And the one or two BIG players may actually end up making from other stuff like e-Commerce Ads (like Amazon does), Big Data, selling stuff like memberships etc.

e-Commerce may end up as a zero or even negative sum game.

Of course, it is too early to say with 100% certainty. But this is the way I see the Global e-Commerce in the future.

I may be wrong. Only time will tell.

But I’d advise startup employees to get ready for more layoffs in the coming months. IMO over 80% of startup employees are likely to end up unemployed sometime in the next 2-3 years.

Don’t tell me I didn’t warn you, my friend! 🙂

Thank You & God Bless!

Founder & CEO
Gaia Internet